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From the Heart

I started a Tumblr blog. I decided that I wanted a place to focus on the happy in life. I need a little re-focusing on the good around me, seeing as there seems to be so much negativity lately. I don’t want to drown in sorrow. I don’t want to be Miss Doom & Gloom all the time. I used to be the optimistic one. I need to try and regain that sunshine. What better way than to take a moment each day to reflect on the happiness in my life?

Today I spent the day with my family. Lately it seems that my Sundays are usually spent around my relatives. It’s sad to think that it’s taken losing a family member to realize how important they really are to me. We have always been a very tight-knit group of people, but now more than ever I feel the need to embrace my relatives and get to know them not just as aunts and uncles, but as people. As I mentioned in my most recent Tumblr post, we so easily forget that not everyone is blessed with knowing their family as well as I have gotten to know mine. My mother comes from a family of eight, and I grew up with 16 cousins. We’ve always been a large family… but there is so much history, so many stories… It’s so sad to think that there are people out there who miss out on that.

We spent the afternoon at my grandparents’ house, celebrating their 68th anniversary. 68 years! It’s hard for me to imagine being alive for that long, nevermind being married to the same person. Birthing and raising eight children. Watching them each raise their own children, and now watching them raise their children as well. The life they’ve lived so far… The stories they have… The things they’ve seen… it astounds me. I strive to be like them. I want to be alive for my great-grandchildren. I want to be able to look over at my husband and be able to say “68 years ago, I married you and look at us now.”

Doris and Herb Boughton, you are an inspiration to me.

“Body Lines” – Self Portrait

Tomorrow marks a few things. Tomorrow is the last day of my one-and-a-half week vacation. It also marks the day that I can pre-order my iPhone 4 (actually I’m hoping to do this by midnight tonight if at all possible). And last (but definitely not least) it marks the three-year anniversary of Simon’s arrival to the U.S. The day that I met him in person for the first time ever after knowing him for four years online. I’m taking him out to dinner to celebrate. I can’t believe it’s been three years! Part of me feels like he’s been here forever… I almost can’t imagine life without him now. But I can still remember sitting in the airport terminal, scared shitless about what would come out of those gates for me, and what it would mean for us. We had already expressed our love for each other. We already knew what we wanted to happen. But we had never actually met before that moment and it was terrifying and  exhilarating all at once.

For those who don’t know, we ended up being married six months later and we’ll be celebrating our three year anniversary this December!

I am really, really not looking forward to going back to work on Wednesday. It’s been about three years since I took a vacation, and this week and a half went by so very quickly, I feel like I’ll need another two just to recover from going back. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I hate my job. There’s just so much drama. It’s been so nice to be living relatively drama-free for the last ten days. I’m almost afraid of how I’m going to react to jumping back into things. Hopefully I’ll be able to swallow my anxiety and just ride the wave.

I am quite sad over the fact that I didn’t take my vacation as an opportunity to photograph more. There’s so much I want to do/try… but really I need more tools. I really want this flash for my camera. I also want this skin (or this one) and this wireless remote. I don’t ask for much, right?

But with the purchase of my iPhone 4, I’m not going to be spending much money elsewhere for a while.

But, they will be mine. Oh yes, they will be mine. Someday.

What is the best (and worst) thing happening to you this week?

My sexy car, Oliver

It’s been a week since Simon and I have been on vacation, and we’ve done nothing but work on my car. We’ve successfully installed the new struts and springs to lower the suspension (and broke a CV joint in the process, in which we had to call a mobile mechanic and have him come to the house to fix it… thank the lord), and installed new HID headlights as well. We still have to replace a motor mount, but I suppose we’ll get to that tomorrow.

It’s been so very relaxing not having to go into work.

And my eyes are closing, so I think this should be my send off for now…